Sometimes people help, they put things into perspective.

I’m a loner for the most part and a lot of times I tend to get myself in a lot of trouble acedemic wise. 

This morning I saw my final grades and I was pretty disappointed with what I saw.  My first thoughts were a bunch of self loathing and hatred and the urge of wanting to cut so I confided in the one person I can always talk to: my sister.

I’ve always been able to go to her for anything and everything especially when I feel like a complete and utter failure.  I mean I’m older than her and I’m supposed to be the one who has it all together and the one who doesn’t screw up all the time.  My sister though several years younger has always felt like the older sister and that’s not how it should be.

So while talking about my school problems she said something along the lines of why not go into journalism or something you love?  That got me thinking to a degree plan I still had lying around so I configured the numbers- input the grades and what not and it seemed to work out.  The classes I took last semester were still ones I needed for this degree plan so it didn’t throw me off at all.  If anything I’m more closer to completeing this degree plan more so than the one I was previously on.

I needed a 2.5 GPA to get into the education program but my GPA is only a 2.0 (at first I freaked thinking it was a 1.5 but that was just my GPA for the semester not the final GPA).  So that would’ve wasted more time.  At least this way I can take classes that I actually need without having to worry about how long it takes me to get into some program and I can be done with school in about a year or a year and a half. 

I just had to find a way and by my sister’s words I did.